Shred it.

Fuck I miss having a girl I think the world of.

I try and I don’t find anyone. I don’t try and I don’t find anyone. It’s been over a fucking year since my last “serious” relationship. And like 5months since I’ve actually been in a relationship. You don’t understand how much I miss waking up and being excited to see someone. Because I haven’t felt that in a very long time. Or see them lying next to me, I’d roll over and cuddle them. Someone that knows me in and out and I’d know the same with them. To have a girl that not only loves to go out and have fun but fucking likes to chill and go out for nice dinners, is intellectual, but isn’t plain. Most of all I miss actually thinking a girl that was mine really was the only girl in my head, and heart. Since my last “serious” relationship I can’t find that for nuts. That last relationship has set such high standards for the next girl I meet that basically I’m so far away from finding someone. So now my next relationship is no where in site. It’s just that everything this girl from the last serious relationship is, is everything I would want in a girl. She all I want to find in someone, but everyday I meet new girls, none of which feel like I really they connect with me and I get so bored so quick. I feel like I force myself to stay with them just so I don’t seem like a dick loving and leaving so quick. And I know/hope that I can find that perfect girl again but shit, now that I’ve been with that perfect, ideal girl I’ve always wanted that’s all I want. My head and heart seem to not want to fall for anything less. So to any girl that meets me in the near future, please stay away because there is a major chance that I could break your heart. Yep, even though everything else in my life is AWESOME, this is the only part that’s buggered at the moment. And so I keep living to have fun now. Thanks for listening.